CRUEL WORLD

I'm confused

I’m daze

I'm caged like a bird.

Why the world doesn’t want to approaching me?

Why the world doesn’t want to talk to me?

Why the world doesn’t want to hold my hand?

Why the world doesn’t want to live with me?

They dislike me

They saw me like a worthless junk

What is my fault?

What is my sin?

Duh Gusti ... What’s wrong with me?

This tears

Flowing from my dropping eyelids

I slowly groaned..

Duh Gusti

For a long time I never be friend with You

My heart is dark of the mortal world

He thown me to the black ocean.

People say that..

I’m a child who has many diseases

I’m a child who suffered viruses

I'm deadly child

I'm contagious kid!

Until nobody care with me..

I do not know when it happens

When did it come to my body

What this virus?

Whether from my father?

Whether from my mom?

Or from the tip of the syringe?

Or maybe from transfuse?

I actually don’t understand where does it come

I do not understand

I do not know who come to my body

But I know that he is the cruel virus!

Yes! You're the cruel virus!

You attack my immune

You spread it all over my body

You destroy my career

You are so cruel!

Now I’m lying and weak

Sprawl in sorrow

Rot with virus death

Duh Gusti ...

When this all end?

All days are getting short

My black note is getting closer

If I'm already be corpse,

Could I be accepted in the heaven?

Astagfirullah.. I want to repentance…

In this place I pray

I want to be friend with the world

Kidding, rejoice, weep and laugh Together

But now, they are gone

Left me alone

In the strains of deep silent

Duh Gusti ...

I need Your help..

From the cruel virus..

Jombang, 10 October 2012